#am i back

[snikkts]

ALICENT HIGHTOWER — House of the Dragon , 1.07 (2022)

[awhoreintheory]

Walk into Love

Lance hated the term "falling in love". 

It was a sad term. Falling was never a fun thing. It left you panicked and disoriented and desperately trying to right yourself. 

To fall in love implies that you'll eventually catch yourself, scrape your knee, or maybe never stop falling. That third option doesn't sound so bad, does it? The feeling in your stomach must be similar, after all. But, realistically, there's no such thing. 

Lance realized early on the beginnings of a crush on Keith. Sometime after the first time Shiro died, making Keith the black paladin, did he notice it. Just little things. Love doesn't have to be all consuming nor dominating. The person you're crushing on, that you like or possibly even love, doesn't have to be someone you replace everyone around you with. People tend to try and do that. Substitute a hundred different people in your life with someone you deem to have "fallen" in love with. 

It tears you apart. It's not possible to do that.To love someone with all your heart, to prioritize or make them your everything. That's what mamá did. Love papa with everything in her heart, and when he left, he left with her heart. It broke her in more ways than could be fixed. 

When you love someone, they shouldn't have your whole heart. Rather, a piece of it. You should know, be able to trust each other, that even if it wasn't your whole heart, they should treat it tenderly. 

So when Lance realized the budding feeling in his gut, he followed it out of curiosity. It did not infringe on the time he spent with friends. It didn't affect his emotions negatively, and it didn't ruin his life. 

The more he began to know Keith, really know him, the more he allowed himself to "fall". (Although, he wouldn't quite call it that.) 

Lance saw Keith's ugliest moments. He saw his faults and his mistakes. Lance saw these and continued forward. He walked into love. 

Lance witnessed all Keith had to offer and took it in stride.

But because Lance didn't exist alone, nor did he wish to, he did not verbalize these now blooming feelings. It would be selfish to do so, (not because it would make Keith uncomfortable or anything, Lance saw the blushing and the staring and the fidgeting,) but because of the timing. There was already so much on Keith's plate, what with Shiro and all, Lance kept his feelings unsaid. 

He did not stop his actions, however. He did not make an effort to hide his affection, but he restrained from saying the words that'd likely throw Keith through quite the loop. 

But Lance, although typically impatient, was more than willing to wait for someone if it was Keith. 

Lance knew what he walked into.

[hahabillyhargrove]

i literally have not been on tumblr in YEARS and then Liam passed away and now i’m just back to reading gay fanfics like i’m 14 again ??? im married with children and have a big girl job but im still crying over gay couples who are not even real ?? (besides larry, of course)

anyway, i missed you guys and this app and im glad to be back 🥳🫶🏻

[backwzzds]

hi

[seasonofthegeek]

Oops. I got caught up on Miraculous and I’ve got it bad again.

[silvermystification]

Lol

[httpsgfg]

merry michael eve!!

[notyours-though]

hi hello

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

[obsob]

i am a being capable of immeasurable love and whimsy

[whatkindofnameisella]

can you believe that we have fanfiction. that we have websites dedicated to fanfiction. that there is a place that you can go and read tens, hundreds, thousands and thousands of pieces of writing that strangers have made. people who are not "writers". people who come home at the end of the day and have feelings and say, i am going to put that into words. i am going to share those words. short, long, sweet, sad, horny, funny, wonderful words. we are all just human and we all love to make and remake and share that with others. can you believe that.

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[singswan-springswan]

In a happy world where Jason is legally resurrected and gets to go to college like he's always dreamed of

[punkitt-is-here]

dipper is a weirdly special kind of character to me because I was that type of kid, the one who wanted to grow up too fast and got irritated at their sibling not taking things too seriously and never wanting to seem childlike. i connected heavily with him, and honestly the entire arc of Gravity Falls being in part about him learning to just be a kid really helped me in the long run. it was a great wake up call seeing a character so similar to me at that age learn to finally stop trying to be an adult before i was ready.

[phantomrose96]

I think we should have a turn of phrase for "I'm not in the right, but I AM annoyed with this situation, so I just need to go bitch to a friend about this before I suck it up and go do the right thing" because more and more I'm finding this is a critical element of functional adulthood.

[maeamian]

If you saw me agreeing with being annoyed about wasted helium in a fictional context and were like "I bet she has some more helium based anger in her life" good news LAPD fucked up a raid on a medical facility they thought was a pot farm and flat out ruined thousands of gallons of the stuff.